the object of today

gettin tagged

2012-01-09T00:01:00.000-08:00

There's something fun about meeting people in this blog world. Learning about different lifestyles, personalities .. relating to people that you haven't met face to face! Recently, I got this tag from a blogger buddy of mine and got pretty excited (well, extremely excited!), as I've never participated in one of these before! So...here goes nothing!

Rules:

1. You must post these rules.
2. Each person must post 11 things about themselves on their blog.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.

4. You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post.

5. Go to their page and tell them you have linked him or her.

À propos de moi:

1. I am a traveller ... Working for an airline "ruined" me! Being able to just hop on a plance, whenever, to go wherever, gave me a bug to travel that I hope I will never lose. I just wish I still had those airline benfits!
2. I love people ... If it be a stranger in a new country, or a long time soul sister, I thrive off of the stories and details that make a person who they are.
3. I love entertaining ... Hosting that is! Having people over at my house, where I can feed them the food I made for them AND make them feel comfortable?! {sigh} the very thought warms my heart.
4. I have a passion for creation ... If you haven't already gotten that from my blurps on this blog! Watching a soup transform with colors and tastes, making a blank canvas white-no-more, capturing the smallest details with my camera, diy projects, drafting floorplans ... I just really like to be creative.
5. I am weak when it comes to a good coffee or good cheese ...
6. ok, french pasteries too!
7. I am married ... to the most wonderful man I could dream of! I am one lucky girl to be blessed with his love.
8. I enjoy running,m aerobics, yoga, and team sports (especially volleyball!) for exercise.
9. I am overly competitive and stubborn ... in good ways, naturally :)
10. I love music ... listening to it, singing or playing it, I find myself in a 'happy' place.
11. I have a collective ancestral background ... as are most North Americans! From my Mom, I am 50% German; from my Dad, I am 25% Ukrainian, 12.5% French, 6.25% Irish, and 6.25% Native American.

Mes reponses ... from Calista's questions:
1. I’m giving you $20,000 to do with as you see fit. What would you do?

Put it towards buying a chunk of land closer to them Rockies...the distant window view is just not cutting it!

2. What’s your favorite book?

The Great Divorce, by C.S. Lewis

3. Can you drive a stick shift? If so, how did you learn?

Haha ... ask my husband! I actually learned how to drive on a standard (until the timing belt came off while driving it!). I attempted driving Matt's standard a few years ago, and he hasn't let me borrow it since.
4. Do you have an Instagram account? What’s your handle?

Yes...yes, I do! @sarahnadine7
5. What would be your dream job?

I've got a few(!) 1. a photographer for National Geographic 2. a freelance writer/blogger 3. a retreat owner 4. professional traveller
6. What is your favorite piece of art?

I have a picture sitting on my mantle of a horse, done impressionist style. Never tire of looking at it.
7. What new band did you discover in 2011 that really got you dancing? Or at least toe-tapping?

Brooke Fraser isn't new, and this song isn't either ... it's just one I think I listened to over a million times in 2011!
8. What’s your favorite condiment?

Mustard ... grainy, dijon mustard.
9. What’s your favorite piece of jewelry?

My wedding rings. I get to wear them all the time!
10. What’s one thing on your “to-do” list for 2012?

Daily find time to do something I thoroughly enjoy.
11. Do you use powder or liquid laundry detergent? Why?

I use liquid laundry detergent. It seems cleaner(!) ... with no powder spills to worry about.

Mes questions ... for the new 'tagees':

1. What is the greatest place you have travelled to?

2. If I were to walk into your fridge/pantry weekly, what is a staple food you "cannot" live without?

3. How do you wear your hair 75% of the time?

4. What is your ethnic background? Is your native tongue different than english?

5. What are the top 3 blogs you frequent?

6. If you could choose any era to live in, what would it be?

7. What is the kindest thing someone has done for you?

8. Why did you start blogging?

9. What is your best workout routine?!

10. Do you have siblings? If so, where do you place in your family?

11. What is one daily routine you do that "sets" your day right?

Tags: Alli, Candaci, Britt, Linda, Sara, Mariel, Crystal, Fawne

Happy tagging!!

pic pix: Hampton Inn Hotel, Edmonton, AB Jan.01.2012

uncover

2011-12-23T07:43:00.000-08:00

I've always had this 'dream'/wish that I could've been an explorer. Go back to the time when there were no maps, expectations of the terrain ahead ... be the first person to ever step foot on that soil. Every time we head up to the mountains and find an area that is "seemingly untouched", I ask Matt, "Do you think some has walked here before? Or could I really be the first??!!". We both know the obvious answer to that question, but I am always hopeful at the slightest chance(!).

"Generations come and generations go,

but the earth remains forever.
The sun rises and the sun sets,
and hurries back to where it rises.
The wind blows to the south
and turns to the north;
round and round it goes,
ever returning on its course.

All streams flow into the sea,
yet the sea is never full.
To the place the streams come from,
there they return again.
All things are wearisome,
more than one can say.
The eye never has enough of seeing,
nor the ear its fill of hearing.
What has been will be again,
what has been done will be done again;
there is nothing new under the sun.
Is there anything of which one can say,
“Look! This is something new”?
It was here already, long ago;
it was here before our time."

Ecclesiastes 1:4-10

As we've all heard before, "nothing is new under the sun". Even though there's something so rapturing and exciting about discovering something no one has before, the ironic thing about an expedition like Lewis & Clark's, is that they weren't even the first to see what they saw ... they were the first to document and uncover it.

I feel sometimes, even the landscapes and explorations in my own life have been pre-felt and pre-experienced - either by me, or just a mirror image of what someone else has gone through before. Though it's true (to an extent), it's usually in those blankets of time that I get overly discouraged and uninspired because I am not seeking to uncover and document the revelation(s) in my own journey. I shrink away from being thankful, I silence the beauties shown to me daily, I hide in my own sorrows, I quiet the confessions that need to be shared...

Though, essentially, there is nothing new under the sun, there are parts of me that need to be uncovered, exposed, and shared ... otherwise, I will never live in the beautiful discovery of my own life's exploration. And that, my friends, is not how I want to live life!

I want to be open, revealing, honest ... uncovering the "new soils" in my life with joy, excitement, and purpose. Maybe others have lived through it and 'been there, done that', but this journey is mine to adventure and presently explore. There ARE new things under the sun ... the aspects of me that aren't uncovered!

Will you uncover yourself today?!

pic pix: on a k-country walk with my bro; Kananaskis, Alberta, Jan.22.2011

where have i been?! and other random news...

2011-12-18T07:30:00.000-08:00

Hello, little blog ... and hello, friends who happen to read my little blog!

Life has been so surprising, changing, unfathomable, and exciting lately. Over the past four months, I feel like I've been watching someone else's life unfold, but have felt all of "their" emotions. You see ... Matt and I found out that we are going to be parents come May 25, 2012!!

the day after we found out!

Yes! This girl, who is continually seeking to find the object to view, learn from, and admire everyday is now gonna be a mama! It hasn't felt real (okay, maybe being really sick and drop-dead tired) until recently when I actually heard the baby's heartbeat. Now it's confirmed...I know I'm not just getting fat!! It's been tough to adjust to a "me" that is different~not able to stay up as late, my energy is just not there, not feeling in control of what immediate goals we are working towards, etc~but I know in the end, this'll all be so worth it.

So pretty much, in a nutshell...along with learning how to be pregnant (my own hormones that I've never met before!), and still shaping into what my role as a wife is, I've been working, finished up my plant class (a pre-course for the landscape architectural certificate I WAS planning to work on this winter), have gotten sick way more than I ever thought I would (morning sickness has taken its toll on me) and I'm still trying to find ways to outlet my creativity.

Though, I haven't been blogging myself ... I've been reading through the blogs I follow every day, hoping that one day (yes, I am being a bit dramatic!) I will have the energy to at least once again, write a post! **note: I even started voice recording my blog posts, so that I could get my thoughts out somehow!!** I'm thankful that November was a month focused on being grateful...with American Thanksgiving and all. Calista, Allison, and Fawne ... all wrote posts to keep me thankful. Other blogs kept me reading for different reasons: Daily, Jo keeps me wanting to nest and shop. Poppytalk inspires me to start projects and have an ultimate diy-christmas this year (watch for coming post!). Cori makes me want to sharpen my photography skills. Even though Baby Mine will no longer be kept current, they share some good ideas for baby items/advise and have some cute pictures documenting their baby's monthly growth. Shelly's trip to Zambia served as a flash of adventure just reading about it. Dear Baby began to open my eyes to different perspective of motherhood (I've got lots to learn!). Tereasa has the coolest methodology when it comes to treasure searching - found, free and flea! So many great words and images that have blessed/encouraged/inspired me lately. Now to get back on it myself!

And just for the sake up trying to 'catch-up', here are a the random updates of some other things that have happening these past few months...

We've been able to have some fun family times together. My cousin got married in Ontario at the beginning of October, so all of my immediate family went there for the weekend. We announced the baby news to them then.

cookies I baked to break the news to my family... all with the 'appropriate' name of course

my immediate family in Sturgeon Falls, Ontario)

had my 6th annual 'family' thanksgiving dinner with close friends ... ended up with a very blurry shot!

Hosted a bachelorette party for my girlfriend's wedding (that took place 11.11.11) ... so wish I could have been there...

you can see some of her wedding details/pictures here

Was able to get out for a "shoot" with my sister-in-law and her family for some fun Christmas photos. They are all so photogenic ... and energetic!

Now with all of that said...I hope to be back soon to share some more!!

put it away.02

2011-09-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

As proven in my last "accidental" post ... my habit of not "putting away" persists! The other night, I left my "put it away" post open on my computer before I went to bed. The next evening, my husband mentioned that he had read my recent post, and I was like, "What new post?". We figured that he had read it from my "drafts" folder in Blogger earlier that the morning from my laptop. But apparently, as my sister-in-law pointed out today ... unknowingly, the post got published!! Without me having the slightest clue! Not sure if it was me or my husband who incidentally published it(!) ... either way, it brought laughs on this end, because it very well exhibited how things can get kooky when not put away properly!

To continue my thoughts from the previous post ....

The more I have been thinking about "putting away" (time, things, etc...), it has dawned on me that that is exactly how I approach the idea of forgiving myself. If I don't accomplish something the way it has played out in my mind and if I haven't reached all that I intended to do, instead of letting it go and putting away my disappointments, I become harder on myself and set higher expectations than initially. Mainly, just so that I can make up for it. It almost seems like I have to prove to myself that I am capable of doing that which I originally envisioned before I can let it go and put that task to rest.

Just like my clean dishes are waiting right now to get put away, it's time I put away these essentially, self-created burdens, and start living with a clean, new to-do list and set of expectations daily. Forgiving myself is hard to do. Yes, even the small stuff can make me sweat. But today, accepting my weaknesses will not put it off a day longer...but will be put it away.

How do you deal with this in your day-to-day?

pic pix: taking time for us, Highway 40, Kananaskis, Alberta, 18.Sept.2011

put it away.01

2011-09-21T22:01:00.000-07:00

Usually, my lack of writing has been a result of "unfound inspiration" or lack of time ... lately, it has definitely been the latter. How people manage to work full-time, be a good wife, be a good mom, be healthy (mentally and physically), enjoy the mountains, have a social life, still be a nice (not grouchy) person, AND blog?! You people amaze me!! Even during the days of our engagement, I had all of these plans to blog my wedding ideas and plans, post pictures, etc. etc. As you rightly saw, that never happened! To those of you that do and have ... wow!

More and more lately, I've been sensing the urgency to "put time away". Time to spend with my husband, MYSELF, friends...God. Literally, the minutes tick away so quickly, and it's easy to just set things aside and not do them. Because something in the moment comes up, I drop those "need-time-for" things and it gets put off for a while.

One of my worst habits is not putting things away (ironic?). I don't mind putting dirty dishes into the dishwasher, but to put away the clean ones? Eep! Folding laundry...I actually love folding laundry. There's something so "feel-good" about getting the creases to fold just right. But to put those folded clothes away?! Last night, I parked all of my folded clothes in the dresser that had been sitting in the basket for over a week. How is this possible?!

The more I have been thinking about "putting away" (time, things, etc...), it has dawned on me that that is how I deal with forgiving myself. What really is happening, is that I am not accepting t

what door?

2011-08-29T23:44:00.000-07:00

A few years back, I went on an Ontario "Family & Friends" visit. Pretty much, everyone that I knew in Ontario, I visited over the course of 14 days. Pretty packed as I spent time with every person (!) but pretty awesome as I was able to go from T.O. to Ottawa to Missasauga to Hamilton to North Bay and Sturgeon Falls...

One day that I was in Hamilton, while my Aunt and Uncle were at work, I got up to some serious people-watching (guilty!) and curious wandering about. I thought I had covered major distances until I plotted it on the map. When you look on a map to see how far you have walked, it can be discouraging after walking for nearly 9 hours straight and only covering the distance of a few inches! It was just on the fringe of fall and there were so many colors and old, interesting things to photograph on that sunny day. I kept noticing a trend of aged houses that had their front doors painted differently than the next. It wasn't until I was almost half-way through my trek that I started to photograph them...

Currently, there are some significant changes on the horizon for my work ... altering ideas exist, but no actions have yet taken place. My role will be changing again and certain dynamics of the company will be formulating from our big meeting this Thursday. I am excited of the potential that this position holds, but I am also fighting inner "creative" concerns. Although it can be exciting and new, am I limiting myself to not thinking past this one opportunity? Am I really working towards my goals, my path, my direction?

Right now, I am more than blessed to have this job and am so thankful for all that I have learned within it. But, it's like I've reached the point of, "With the skills that I have and am interested in attaining, this may be as far as I can go here." I feel it very difficult for me to see outside of the "building" and perimeters that I have put up for myself creatively and industrially during my day to day life ... it's like an entrapment and dissatisfaction of my own doing.

While skimming through old photos and trips previously taken, when I again saw these snapped doors, I thought to myself, "If only these were opportunities. Colorful, whimsical, classy, stylish, yuppy, and trendy...what if I had the choice to walk through the one I felt like, when I felt like it?". That's when it hit me...there can be no doors that bound me to stay inside and no doors that will lock me out of entering! EVERY day, I have been given the choice (by privilege and freewill) to select the door of my choosing.

In a previous post, I talked about how there are opportunities waiting to be had ... right in front of us. As long as we have our eyes ready to see these portals, I believe God will reveal them to us. Visually, these doors remind me that I need to take a walk to look outside my own agenda and invite the adventure in and just not day-dream about it. There is so much out there waiting to be discovered that I need to capture, analyze, and appreciate before I settle on a specific doorframe.

If or when you think that you are trapped within a certain perspective, rut, job, or attitude, seriously, just take a look around you. Opportunity is not limited to one entrance, with a certain style or framework...

What door do you walk through today? What door(s) exist around you?

tiny blues and links

2011-08-18T09:57:00.000-07:00

tiny blues and links

Though, I haven't had time for my own writings (the second meaning to tiny blues!) ... here are some "objects of today" that have at least kept me reading, absorbing, and feeling challenged this week.

I like how the girl at ThisCabinLife wants to live simply ... this post she mentions how she wants to blog with humility. Good reminder when we are sharing words to the world. (thanks for the link Calista!)

Over at the Anchor and the Bird, CC (a girl, as she so puts it, with "split personalities"!) is working on a project to do a kind deed every day and blog about it. Look how long her hair WAS!! She's inspired me to look for new openings to in turn be blessed from.

I really like the colors and perspective this photographer shares. Especially the macro section.

My sister talked about being positive the other day ... thanks for the honesty and reminder to do the same, mi German(!) xo

Out of the Ordinary Dreamer seems to put words out there that my mind can flow with, "...it’s been rumbling in my heart brain..." as she shares what she is learning, seeing, and feeling.

pic pix: tiny mountain blues, Upper Spray Lakes, Canmore AB, Jul.2010

the (more than) happy hat

2011-08-12T06:20:00.000-07:00

The other day I wore a hat ... a new hat, at that. I am a "hat person" by nature, and love wearing them as much as I love buying them! Even while we were at Lollapalooza last weekend (awesome!! post coming soon!), I could not believe the amount of hats that I saw on guys and girls alike ... it was almost like looking back on the '20s (tidbit: Wall Street Journal did a piece last year about what they thought about this generation wearing hats)! But, as present as ever, when I wore my hat just the other day, I seemed to attract a seemingly large amount attention and got a stockpile of comments just for wearing it!

It is from the men's section...but how were those onlookers supposed to know that?! Normally, I try to smile at people when I make eye contact with them, but that day, I felt like I was smiling non-stop! In a funny way, them seeing the hat either made them feel comfortable to talk to me or something...conversation starter, perhaps? Whatever it was, it drew my attention to how people come to view or perceive me in a day by what I "put on".

Obviously, I'm not suggesting that you have to wear a hat to give others a good impression of yourself! The hat only sits on the brim of it(!). Digging deeper, I as myself, "what does everyone receive from me? If it be a second or an hour encounter..." You can be smiling and wearing a hat, but that means nothing when your heart is not ready to love or when it's not at peace.

In Ephesians 6, the apostle Paul warns us that everything we face here on earth is a battle, not between man to man, but against an enemy and his accomplices in the spiritual realm. Though, usually, our outer selves represent the state of our hearts, it goes much farther than how we look outwardly.

Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. For weare not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared.In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Ephesians 6:10-17

I encourage you, and myself, to put on your armor today. Be confident as you walk in the protection, love, and grace of God and be ready to share why your countenance is sweet, full, and sure.

And...if you wear a cool hat, bonus!

pic pix: the happy hat, Calgary, AB Aug.2011

...reaches to the clouds

2011-08-09T06:45:00.000-07:00

I will thank you, Lord, among all the people. I will sing your praises among the nations.
For your unfailing love is higher than the heavens. Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

Be exalted, O God, above the highest heavens.
May your glory shine over all the earth.

Psalm 108:3-5

pic pix: yesterday morning's sky, Calgary, AB, 08.Aug.2011

the secret's out!

2011-08-05T04:57:00.000-07:00

I let the surprise out!! We are off to see ColdPlay at Lollapalooza in Chicago ... TONIGHT!!! SO excited ... I could barely sleep last night! We are just heading on the plane very soon from the good 'ol YYC. I'm so glad Matt's pumped to go too (though I never seriously doubted, but maybe just a little!).

pic pix: me and my cousin excited at the YYZ airport, Sept.2009

s'more of the simplicity...

2011-08-05T00:51:00.000-07:00

What a great long weekend camping in Kananaskis - Blue Rock Campground (can't believe that it's already "last weekend"!). Away from it all...phones, internet, work, busyness. How is it that not showering, sleeping on the ground, and making food over an open fire makes you never want to leave the mere simplicity of it? It's when I break it down that I ask myself,"Why is it so appealing?!"

It comes down to getting back to the basics, the rawness, the foundation of who we are created to be. Jesus even reminds us to:

Anyone who listens to my teaching and follows it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock.

Matt 7:5-23-25

It seems way too easy, to just listen and follow ... to become strong and confident on solid ground. Have you simply listened or obeyed today? Today, do you abandon your complicated reasonings and seek to know Him and find His unvarnished strength and wisdom?

Here are a few simple moments captured from this weekend:

pic pix: simple camping fun, Blue Rock Campground, Sheep River Provincial Park, AB Aug.2011

shhhhh...

2011-08-03T22:57:00.000-07:00

A couple weeks ago, I told Matt that I had a surprise for him but he wouldn't be able to know what it is for a month. Do you know how difficult it has been to keep this in?!?! Aye! It doesn't matter what we are talking about, I am literally on the verge of spilling the beans! When he leaves the room, or is gone from the vicinity, I quickly fill in anyone around me to be a part of this little secret. I hope he has no idea what it is ... because, it wouldn't be as fun if he just found out. I'm glad I put a time limit on it (which could be anytime within this month!), otherwise, I might not be able to keep it in. I am so tempted to write it here ... but do not want to chance it IF he happens to read this. Gah!!!

Yet, on the flip side, it is SO hard to be excited about something without sharing it with him. I can't think of anything (besides other surprises for him) that I don't share or communicate. Actually, I probably relay a little too much sometimes! It's an amazing thing to be able to say that I get to share this life - my thoughts, emotions, dreams, aspirations, fears, songs, etc - with him. What a treat, what a delight ... what a blessed woman am I.

But for the moment, I am going to keep this secret hush-hush for a little while longer ...

pic pix: some "surprises" we found in the Pacific Ocean while snorkeling on our honeymoon, Manzanillo, Mexico,

teacup bathing + camping

2011-07-27T22:48:00.000-07:00

I was introduced to this obsession of outdoor waterholes from a blogger friend's posts at August and After. If it be hot or cold, she's seemed to search out the best options. How AWESOME would it be to bath outside, in a giant teacup, with the smell of a woodstove right beside you?!! I am now officially part of the outdoor waterhole club...thanks Cori :)

We are going camping this weekend....though a Dutchtub would be perfect to bring along, we will manage just fine (sigh!) without. Friends are coming along. The weather is supposed to be beautifully warm. Yummy snacks and lazy afternoons. Ahhh, yes, 3 FULL days without work! Friday, why haven't you come yet...

Camping always rejuvenates something inside of me. Maybe it's the close proximity to something raw, or the untouched beauty that surrounds me that makes me enjoy it and look forward to it so much. Just 2 more sleeps then I'll be sleeping under the stars!

pic pix: Dutchtub's 4 person model - how I covet thee!

is it enough?

2011-07-24T21:33:00.000-07:00

A few months ago, we went down to Montana for a quick get-away. Very fun, beautiful, relaxing, fulfilling (shopping and all!). While we were down there, we saw this old Ford F-700 that I VERY much liked. Ever since we laid eyes on it, I've been trying to think of creative ways we could justify buying it...business ideas, to everyday usage (ha!)...suggestions anyone?!

Not just about this truck, but with other "things". We have these perpetual thoughts, "If we had/knew this...", "If we could just...", and we continually look for what is about to happen. Don't get me wrong, dreaming is what sometimes keeps me sane, but yearning to be anywhere but the present is what merits a negative perspective on life. And really, it's not a new message. I've heard it from so many different sources said in so many different ways... "Carpe Diem-Sieze the Day", "Live now...", "The present is a gift", etc, etc, etc. So, why/how do we always get back to the cycle of thinking if (1) we know the answers or (2) have at least gotten these empathetic phrases from past thinkers who have contemplated these very same things?

Maybe I'm digging a whole lot deeper and going on a curved tangent from the simple dream of wanting to own this truck, but it has really got me thinking about what I REALLY want. Where I want to see my life. How I should be spending my time now. Am I living freely...satisfied...bound to my Savior's grace?

I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. Ecclesiastes 3:12-14

As a heart-cry, I ask God to continually remind me of all that He has done for me ... sending us His Son Jesus, His Spirit as our Comforter, giving us grace so freely, all so that I will not be in want.

All so that I may be satisfied in knowing Him and wanting nothing more than to learn more of who He is.

pic pix: FORD F700, Whitefish, MT, April.2011

it "works"

2011-07-14T00:33:00.000-07:00

Years ago, my Mom gave me some useful advise that I've used for nearly EVERYTHING! When it comes to shopping or designing, I've heard her voice in my head, countless times quoting the same few words. I've even repeated her advice back to her when she's asked the questions, "Does this suit me?", "Will this go with my style?!". Her wisdom ...

As long as you love it, it's going to work.

A simple logic and great reminder for me never to get away from the basics of who I am or what I see beauty in. Maybe the first time she spoke the words, she didn't intend for me to take it to heart in ALL areas of my creative perspectives ... but I have.

Again, as any time I think deeply about inspiration, creation, or beauty my thoughts are turned to our Creator, God. My God loves everything that is in existence around us, regardless of it's flaws, nics, or scratches. And somehow, and in someway, if you take a look around, all that has been created just seems to "work" together.

There is not one shade of green that is exactly the same if you look at a mountainside pixeled with trees. The fact that combinations of different instruments can make many stylings of music that soothe and sing to us. When words and textures that have never been integrated together are mixed and produced, some label the phenomenon as "original" with an instantaneous appreciation. An instance where two opposite personalities attract, that make for a successful marriage...wonderful parents...

How does it all work together when it's not perfect or matching? Simply ... because of His love for us.

pic pix: 2 of my favorite things - peonies & paper - that "work"! Jun.2011

his image.wonderful

2011-06-15T07:54:00.000-07:00

wonderful : full of wonder
inspiring delight : delightful inspiration

Everything he does reveals his glory and majesty.
His righteousness never fails.
He causes us to remember his wonderful works.
How gracious and merciful is our Lord!
Psalm 111:3-4

pic pix: colorful, intricate bark, Whitefish, Montana, April.2011

run hard

2011-06-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

There are clubs you can't belong to
Neighborhoods you can't live in
Schools you can't get in to
But the roads are always open.
Just do it.

This is a Nike poster I've been holding onto for years. I took it off the wall after it had ripped and was looking rather tattered (even after taping it over and over!) … but still, have not been able to throw it away. I got it from a flea market when I was 9 years old. Definitely the era when I "had" to have posters up on my wall. At that point, I thought I was going to make it to the Olympics as a 100m runner. A-N-Y-thing, may I repeat, A-N-Y-thing to do with running … I was drawn to. Funny, now I try to picture a 9 year old having the desire to be a runner, and cannot imagine how obsessed I must have seemed!

Now, facing realities, I find that too often I put limitations on myself for what I CAN actually do. Somewhat like what that prose talks about "...clubs you can't belong to ... schools you can't get in to ...". No, I will never be an Olympic short distance sprinter (surprise Sarah!), but who says I can't run?! And run hard as if I were?! Even the Bible talks about giving running in our race of faith, not expecting to win, but running as if you would anyway ... with your ALL!

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize?

Run in such a way as to get the prize.

1 Corinthians 9:24

Today, I will take on the day ... grabbing hold of the desires that have been placed in me. Being obedient to that which I know God has given me a heart to do. Why wait any longer?!

The roads are always open.

pic pix: my favorite poster, Jun.2011

his image.awesome

2011-06-03T10:31:00.000-07:00

Christ is the visible image of the invisible God.
      He existed before anything was created and is supreme over all creation,
for through him God created everything
      in the heavenly realms and on earth.
   He made the things we can see
      and the things we can’t see—
   such as thrones, kingdoms, rulers, and authorities in the unseen world.
      Everything was created through him and for him.

Colossians 1:15-16

pic pix: above Spray Lakes, Canmore, Alberta, Jul.2010

his image.joy

2011-05-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

This day was THE happiest day of my life!! There was so much promise fulfilled

as God shared His pure JOY with us ...

pic pix: picture courtesy of Perspective Eye Photography - "our happy day" - see some more of our wedding pictures here, 19.Feb.2011

his image.love

2011-05-26T10:16:00.000-07:00

The book I was looking at had pages filled with images taken from the HubbleSite...a fascinating space telescope. Picture after picture, the stars, planets, and funny-formed gases held new wonder and intrigue. As a coffee table book, there were captions and quotes that expressed, awed at, and pointed to the amazing creation within. Flipping through the pages, I couldn't help but be drawn to the question this verse asked:

With whom then, will you compare God? To what image will you liken Him?
Isaiah 40:18

I am all about documenting the moment. Usually, I remember special moments with the perspective I had when capturing the image. Even for our wedding, I had to really study the photographer's viewpoint before it felt like the event really took place(!). Images speak to me, teach me, and help me remember. But when I ask myself about the Creator of it all ... how can an image(s) begin to render the Great YAHWEH? The One who brings into existence whatever exists. What do YOU liken Him to?

Beginning with this image, starts a series of depictions that remind me of special moments when God has revealed a side of Himself to me.

pic pix: God's pure love...for everyone, Llano Bonito, Panama, Feb.09

inspire

2011-04-27T22:08:00.000-07:00

It's been hard to be creative lately. From writing here or my journal, playing or composing music, or just having the 'oomph' to start a project ... it's been hard. I've felt a lack of inspiration...

to {inspire}: fill (someone) with the urge or ability to do or feel something, esp. to do something creative; breathe or blow into [impart a truth or idea to someone].

When I compared the "state" of my inspiration before to now, I realized I couldn't find an excuse as to why I was not receiving inspiration with my surroundings, gratitudes, and love. Sure, I will face times where I will be in a slump and not as riveting, but right now, things are fun, fresh, exciting and new. So, why is it that I cannot find that urge or ability to do or feel something creative? It's my 'fuel', is what ... HOW I am fulfilled ... satisfied.

Let them give thanks to the LORD for his unfailing love

And his wonderful deeds for mankind,

For he satisfies the thirsty

And fills the hungry with good things.

Psalm 107:8-9

Much like this bamboo, I'm in a time of seeing variations of myself ... some yellow, fresh green, dried up and peel-able... Parts of me that I have brushed to the side, as I've faced "other, pressing" issues in my life until now, are now being exposed, revealed, even to me. Through this, I am learning, developing, and gaining sweet perspective of my Creator as He continues to provide, nourish, and reach me however I may be.

I flip my attitude and say, because of that, I can know satisfaction and be inspired today ... lucky me, and lucky for you too, as He promises to the same for you!

pic pix: bamboo shafts spotted on our honeymoon, Manzanillo, Mexico, Feb.2011

home

2011-04-03T00:27:00.000-07:00

It's been 42 days since we got hitched! Forty-two days that I have been a married woman, a wife! In so many ways, I cannot believe the time has gone by so quickly. Yet in other ways, I still find myself giggling because I cannot believe that it is done and we are one! I've never felt/had quite transformation, adjustment, joy, and gratefulness all in a month's time (+) like this ... it's pretty crazy! We've taken on new roles, titles, and a more integrated way of life. We're creating a home ...

I've always loved to decorate and 'create' a space to make it feel nice. If it's only to set the table for dinner or to showcase art from our travels, I take joy and pride in doing it. As I was rearranging again today (yes, this is almost considered a hobby of mine!), the thought of a home's true meaning really got stripped down as I asked myself, "What makes this physical place our home?" Sure, it's the warmth and coziness of the setup/layout, the memories in every artifact, the heirlooms and decor ideas I brought from my Mom & Dad's, the mere fact that this structure is where I find safety to rest and to just "be".

Growing up, my home was where my family was every night regardless of a quarrel, mess up or bad/good day. Our close quarters didn't define our home, our love did. The creative arrangements of furniture and colors didn't speak what our hearts knew as home, but our love did. "Home" was when we realized and appreciated who each member in our family was and how they contributed to it. A love regardless of location, age, or behavior ... our home = simple love.

Now, as we have our own family (just the two of us!), I see it even clearer how we make our home by our love. Though I quite enjoy setting up and staging niceties and eye stimulators to make the place appear 'homey', it is all in vain and worthless if we don't establish it on what really makes it ours ... our love.

Love begins at home, and it is not how much we do...but how much love we put into that action.

Mother Teresa

pic pix: our first & second home (1-eachother; 2-God's beautiful creation), Highwood River, AB 25.Sep.2010

cairns

2011-01-25T06:48:00.000-08:00

In 25 days, I will be marrying m'Love ... the man who encourages me daily, challenges me to new heights continually, protects me, loves on me, believes in what I dream to do/or become, places hope in the same Savior to direct our lives together. He knows how to make me laugh (even when I try to be stubborn not to); he listens to the 'never before said aloud' thoughts I articulate; he asks questions that make me really ponder and speak so raw-fully true; he loves me with those eyes when I'm close up or far away...

We've had the opportunity to face some hard things emotionally together. Distance and time were at one point factors, but God knew what we needed to go through and how, despite what I thought was difficult or unfair. I knew this day would come, where I could look back and say, "That all was for a reason", but honestly, I never knew how overjoyed and blessed this feeling would be. Like along a hiking trail, our story has built cairns along the way ...

We set out on a scramble this past summer ... it was the middle of July, but because of our cold spring, at some parts on the mountain, there was still waist-deep snow!! I knew once our group got narrowed down to 3 athletic men and yours truly ... that I was in for it! Not only that, but on our drive to the mountains, I was informed that we wouldn't be hiking along a path, but creating our own (scrambling to the top). I told Matt that I probably wouldn't be able to keep up, and his reply was, "No matter what, I will be with you. We'll do what we can. We'll enjoy it together." If you know me, you know that my competitive spirit is, well, impressionable ... so yes, this was hard to swallow as we had not even begun yet!

There came the point where moss met rock, rock met snow ... the first cairn. Significantly placed. It was a point we could turn around and walk back to the jeep after a 2 hour hike, or continue on up for the next few hours! What our next steps proved to be, were the most frightening yet amazing moments I have ever experienced. Scaling a mountain wall is fun ... until you look down. Being snowed and hailed on while hiking in thigh-high snow is never fun (or safe), especially when you cannot go anywhere for shelter...

That one day summed allot of what our relationship has been through ... challenge, endurance, and learning how to rely on God's strength which really is simple, pure joy. I wouldn't trade any of the sweat and tears or leaps and fears out of my memory or reality. For, just like rocks are carefully placed along the trail to mark the journey to form a cairn, so have each of the details in our lives together been.

Love ... I can't wait for the cairn building ahead!

pic pix: Mount Sparrowhawk, Spray Lakes, AB, 10.Jul.10

juggling

2011-01-14T09:45:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I just wish there was another 2 hours of sunlight to spend outside, another 45 minutes to meet a deadline due right now, and, as I told myself this morning, another 3 hours to sleep after the alarm clock rang! It doesn't matter how busy you get, you always want to fit in one more thing. When you have "nothing" to do, you want to find something to do. And when you're too busy, you wish you had an extra minute to put up your feet and relax. It's comical what we long for sometimes, yet, I am seeing it is more of an ignored, subtle cry we have learnt to 'live with'.

Time will continue to move on, however you spend it ... how then can you budget for it? Lately, for me, life has been a question of balance. Not that I have no idea what that equilibrium is, but rather, I need to find this "even" existence. Between work, wedding plans, quality time with God, m'Love, my family, my friends ... no time is spent rejuvenating myself, personal development gets halted, and before I know it, I don't know how I've spun through this cycle to lead me to 'tiredness'. The best way I can describe it is like a top. I spin and spin around and it seems manageable, but eventually I end up being pulled down by gravity. Everything has to stop because I am uneven after all these turns and can not balance upright.

Happiness is not a matter of intensity but of balance and order and rhythm and harmony.

Thomas Merton

Balance will be a forever subject I will think, write, and ponder about...it's finding the perfect symmetry of all actions - busy-ness to productivity, relaxing to procrastinating - and the equality of time quality - work, friends, family. Balance means knowing your priorities, you responsibilities, and your ambitions.

Balance, peace, and joy are the fruit of a successful life. It starts with recognizing your talents and finding ways to serve others by using them.
Thomas Kinkade

These guys have said it ... now, I gotta do it!

pic pix: m'Love balancing on a bridge, Many Springs, AB 19.Jun.10

another go, a new day

2011-01-03T10:48:00.000-08:00

Once again, the aura envelopes us ... fresh air, new beginnings, crisp intentions ... a new year! Never have I really made resolutions for a new year, but I always anticipate this "idea" of starting anew.

A glimpse of what the year 2011 cradles for me ...

Our Wedding ...

Only 47 days to go! I can't WAIT to wake up next to him every morning, knowing that he is my husband and I am his wife ... taking hold of every moment we breathe together and discovering what our lives will become. Wish it was only 47 more minutes ... sigh!

Expanding my "Photo-World" horizons ...

Prospective business ideas are floating around (especially now with my new lil iPad!) I hope to soon share what these ideas and makings actually evolve into.

Home-making our home ...

Though, I have already moved into our new place and am starting to make it feel "homey", a part of this year will be establishing ourselves ... hosting friends and family and spending time here we will create and "make" our home.

Learning opportunities ...

My employers have graciously offered to pay for the schooling of any courses that are applicable to our field of work. I love absorbing new information, fitting more pieces of "the puzzle" together. Can't wait to dive into some new material!

Another birthday ...

You can't go through a year without hitting one of those.

Taking on new roles ...

Soon and very soon, I will be a:

Wife

Daughter-in-law

Sister-in-law

Auntie ... all persons I have never been though can't wait to officially be!

Creativity ...

I've always said, "if I only had a space where I could leave projects half-way through only to pick up again, I'd have allot more undertakings...". No longer is that an "if-only"... we have a second room that we are using as an office where I can set up for painting, drawing, paper-cutting, sewing and leaving it all where I last worked on it. I can craft anywhere, but to have this domain will be wonderful.

And though there are these things I look forward to (and more!), I believe the greatest challenge will still be to live in the moment I am in, enjoying all that today will exhibit, seizing every opportunity effectively and purposefully.

May you have a Happy New Year, New Month, New Week, New Day and New Moment!!

pic pix: bushel of dried grass, out with old-in with the new, Okotoks, AB Dec.10

gramma day

2010-12-30T01:28:00.000-08:00

What a joy...having a Gramma day! We got up "early" this morning to take the three hour hike up to Edmonton...me and mi familia. By the time we arrived, lunch was wafting in the air, treats were on the coffee table, Gramma was on her toes ready to give us all hugs. Warmth, love, food, and comfort...all words to describe my day. Was able to nap at my leisure and fully, truly relax. It never really feels like Christmas until we spend time with her...she is a treat!!

I need more of these Gramma days!

pic pix: my Gramma, June 2009

follow

2010-12-25T21:07:00.000-08:00

Nearby shepherds were living in the fields, guarding their sheep at night. The Lord’s angel stood before them, the Lord’s glory shone around them, and they were terrified.

The angel said, “Don’t be afraid! Look! I bring good news to you–wonderful, joyous news for all people. Your savior is born today in David’s city. He is Christ the Lord. This is a sign for you: you will find a newborn baby wrapped snugly and lying in a manger.” Suddenly a great assembly of the heavenly forces was with the angel praising God. They said, “Glory to God in heaven, and on earth peace among those whom he favors.”
When the angels returned to heaven, the shepherds said to each other, “Let’s go right now to Bethlehem and see what’s happened. Let’s confirm what the Lord has revealed to us.” They went quickly and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby lying in the manger. When they saw this, they reported what they had been told about this child. Everyone who heard it was amazed at what the shepherds told them. Mary committed these things to memory and considered them carefully. The shepherds returned home, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen. Everything happened just as they had been told. Luke 2:8-20

Can you imagine being one of these shepherds? Just another day, going about your business, when all of a sudden a host of angels appears in front and above you?! They were experiencing another day "at the job", when all of a sudden angels appeared before them and they dropped everything at that moment, in faith, to go and do what God was requiring was requiring for them to do...follow.

How Mary felt, how Joseph would have felt, initially finding out what their calling would be, realizing what they would have to face...and yet, regardless of how they 'felt' towards the matter, they got up and followed, willingly .

How the three wisemen knew to follow a star, for study and interest, yes, but what could have been done from where they researched every other star, at home...yet they followed.

I cannot put myself in a position that I will never be in (as one of them), but I can make a decision each and everyday to follow ...

Jesus, I thank you for your wonderful birth and for sharing the beautiful orchestration of how you
chose to come to us,
to give us free choice,
to know your love just

so that we may follow...

Jesus, I celebrate your birth today and thank you for this wonderful freedom ...

unraveling...revealing

2010-12-22T23:52:00.000-08:00

PRELUDE for the PROCRASTINATOR

Each breathe, minute, day, and week

Is taken as it comes.

It is perceived that you don't have care in the world to rush,

Yet, the intertwined systems you 'plan to' are more than what another mind fathoms.

Started this and thats, hodepodges, and knickknacks,

Sometimes, usually, maybe, completed tomorrow.

If anything is accomplished, it is this:

You've given the organizer a collective intro.

ODE to ORGANIZERS

Though it looks like you hustle and bustle,

It is only for a time.

While everyone races to achieve within the last minute scramble,

You enjoy stirrings and busy-ness in their prime.

Many of your days are efficient and productive,

Though adventure is sometimes amiss.

The world could not do without such intricate, polished thinkers,

For even your vocabulary does not dare contain the word remiss.

pix pic: ribbons, 05.Apr.08

keep it simple

2010-12-22T15:09:00.000-08:00

Yes ... it is really only 59 days away! With SO much to do! As I am being told by everyone, "Plans do change!" I was hoping to get my invites out before Christmas (ha!), but we could not secure our venue until this last weekend. And when you go the DIY route, things take a that little bit longer and require some creative sessions to get the ball rolling. After the invites are out, FOOD will be our next big milestone...that will not be DIY!!

Isn't that how life always goes though? Once you have accomplished one thing, you are on to the next? We wait until we finish "this" thing to get to "that", then once we finish "that" thing we want to go over "there"!! Life is a continual work in progress ... WE are continual works in progress. I sometimes forget that, and do not value what I am going through, wishing that I would have done it better to begin with. But where, oh where, does it say, "Thou shalt be perfect"?!

Especially, pulling wedding stuff together, maybe I have never anticipated perfection (as that's not even my style) but yet I expect that the deadlines I give for myself need to be met. I can start to look like my own slave driver! Though, there are so many "good" things to-do out there, lists and plans of this and that, and {heart} embellishments that can be added to nearly everything, and ... etc ... etc ... There is a day I am breathing in today that I need to focus on enjoying. A faith that is in fact, simpler than I make it ...

The Lord protects those of childlike faith ...let my soul be at rest again, for the Lord has been good to me. Psalm 116:6-7

crazy rest

2010-12-04T23:39:00.001-08:00

WOW!! It's been a whirlwind as of late ... getting engaged, planning a wedding for February, finding a new house and starting to move, Christmas ... but, oh-so-much fun!!!

There is something about having a real peace that resonates true joy. For anyone that has known the personal struggles I have personally been through, what Matt and I have been through, our family ... it really does seem unexplainable that at this point to be where we are today ... a point of peace. Not that what has been faced has been something so terrible, but moreso, challenging. The gift of God's beautiful timing has given us an opportunity to see His blessing in in our lives. Our four years together has nurtured, strengthened, and now blossomed into one of the most beautiful pictures I have ever been a part of. To have full support of our Heavenly Father and our families has relieved this weight, my heart is so incredibly light, overjoyed, amazed.

... and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus... Philippians 4:7

I know I've mentioned this particular passage has been a 'go-to' for me through many of my life's places already and yet again, it has spoken so clearly to me lately. God has given me His peace to embrace, a point of not so much understanding the "HOW" but breathing the "NOW". It has produced peace just to breathe ...

pic pix: woods surrounding Lake Minnetonka, AB, Nov.2010

going to the chapel ....

2010-11-23T23:16:00.000-08:00

and we're GONNA GET MARRIED!!!

I love you Darling xo

pic pix: earlier tonight ... can't believe the look on my face!! 23.Nov.2010

love is ...

2010-11-15T23:06:00.000-08:00

Love is encouragment - I was overwhelmed today ... a lot on my plate at work, a lot going on emotionally within. The only way I can describe my emotions was as if I had reactional tsunamis occurring a few times through the day when I least expected them. It wasn't until m'Love talked with me and processed through the realities instead of the expectations and pressures I sometimes put on myself, that I was able to feel a peace, an "ok-ness". He encouraged me and loved me regardless of how my mood was.

Love is graciousness - Amidst a storm of an emotion earlier in the day, I happened to be on the phone with my Dad. It really is true when you're told the people that you are most comfortable with are the ones that get to see ALL of your colors! Even though I could've handled myself allot better, and we were both frustrated, I knew that in asking for his forgiveness, when he said he would ... he really meant it. That in and of itself is a blessing of love I could never have asked for more of.

Love is listening - I had the chance to just talk with one of my cherished of friends when I got home. In the course of our conversation, I began to unravel thoughts and spots my mind had been wandering for the past while. Most of it had nothing to do with the day that I had just been through, but either way, I know she would have listened still with the same intent. It's one thing to think a thought to yourself, and it's another to feel the freedom to share it in safe company knowing that you will reap the benefit of their input and/or support behind you regardless of what you say.

Love is really a wonderful gift ... if it's between the love of my life, family, or friends, its a blessing that is incredibly and benevolently showered over me. I love all y'all!

pic pix: Chester Lake 'Heart', 14.Aug.10

woot woot!

2010-11-08T22:53:00.000-08:00

After not being able to post pictures on Blogger for the last 2 weeks, I have finally figured out a way to temporarily fix the problem (?) so that I may get still get my words out there! It's when you are not able to do something~eat chocolate, write your blog, drink coffee, speak your mind~you realize how much you enjoy those very things. As I am in the middle of a cleanse right now, chocolate, cheese, and coffee happen to be those pined for food items, when normally I do not crave them as much (... well, maybe!). So, though food I may be without, I've at least got my 'voice' back today!!

pic pix: words of "Love" carved in a tree, Mesa, AZ May.2010

metamorphosis

2010-11-04T22:25:00.000-07:00

As a wee one, my mom read my brother and I Eric Carle's - The Very Hungry Caterpillar. Everytime she would get to the word "cocoon", we would laugh in hysterics! Not really even sure why, except that it sounded funny. Then, as I got a little bit older (7 or 8) and learnt the words "photosynthesis" and "metamorphosis"... and me, being smarter than the teacher, thought I would add them to a story I wrote (which, by the way, had nothing to do with either of the subjects!). If I could only find it now ... though I think I threw it out because I was so embarrassed!

Lately, I've thought a lot about change, transformation, and how we really go through a continual alterations in our lives. Unlike the caterpillar, that undergoes one major evolving process in it's entire existence, we, as humans, get to experience every stage over and over ... metamorphosis.

"My mind, thoughts, and emotions have been a tingly tumult as of late ... the biggest result of my current life changes. Facing life as you don't know it, trying to jive within my own life's "groove", feeling like the new shoes I'm now walking in will never fit comfortably ... it's all exciting and the best decisions (house-move & job-move) I could make for myself right now ... "

I wrote this in my journal the other week, shadowed with much stirred emotion. Things are temporal, and reshaping happens all the time, and usually, I welcome it ... anticipating the opportunity to get a refreshed traction. This time I felt trapped in a cocoon - no way out, set perspective, stuck. Then ... I read this:

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.

Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is-His good, pleasing, and perfect will.

Romans 12:2

I have been transformed, renewed, and blessed by God just by seeking His will! No, not all my disruptions feel at peace, but yet, I can be sure that He will be here as I break out of this cocoon I've been in and as I go through my metamorphosis.

pic pix: butterfly in Kananaskis, AB Sept.09

original

2010-10-26T18:45:00.000-07:00

One essential ingredient for being an original in the day of copies is courageous vision.

Charles Swindoll

Ever get a wind of excitement? Surge of energy? Ideas don't stop flowing?!? It's not a daily occurrence for me, but when it ever does happen ... it's usually right in the middle of the night!! True as blue, I woke up slightly tired this morning because of it. How do you stop expressive creativity? Even work innovations (work blog/newsletter, new commands in CAD, efficient ways to do this&that) have been forming and shaping in my mind lately. It's SUCH a refreshment, a feeling of "doing what I'm supposed to be", satisfaction because of the smallest details ... its originality ... it's being natural.

pic pix: windmills following creation's example, PEI, May.2010

blitz trips.2

2010-10-20T22:29:00.000-07:00

As promised ... some visuals from me and my Dad's rendezvous in NYC!!

pic pix: NYC memoirs, New York, NY Sept.2010

look up to

2010-10-17T23:06:00.000-07:00

Who or what do YOU look up to?!

"...follow me...", Jesus

John 21:19

pic pix: avid fan of the Liberty Lady herself, Liberty Island, NY 19-Sept-10

roughed out

2010-10-14T18:09:00.000-07:00

I looked at this bark and thought, "Is this how it was intended to be?" ... a beauty mark, perhaps, explaining just that?

As Matt was fishing the other Saturday, I was poking around the Highwood River, trying to cocoon every color my eye could see into my camera's viewfinder. Were the colors ever delicious! While taking in as much as I could with the morning's light, the word "intent" answered as a whisper, replying to my thoughts...

why do the beautiful colored leaves need to fall so soon?

that is what God intended ...

is there a point to little pimple-like bumps on a log?

maybe we'll never know ... but they were intentionally put there, quite possibly to be intrigued about!

how can plants grow IN these rocks?

it was intended that they were to grow, so growth is what the Creator allowed ...

There is intention with every creation, down to the minute details of one insect grabbing pollen from a flower so that flower may reproduce itself. We can be awe-struck just watching "it" all happen. When it comes time to looking at ourselves in the mirror and seeing 'creation', it can be difficult ... realizing God's intention for placing us where He has. Yet, when witnessing such beautiful moments, I remember and relish His promises, His goodness, and anticipate what is yet to be attained as I follow Him in faith.

The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me ...your love, O Lord, endures forever -

do not abandon the work of your hands.

Psalm 138:8

pic pix: eye "relishes", Highwood River, AB, Sept-10

blitz trips

2010-09-20T23:37:00.000-07:00

Had some prime moments these past few days ... from one end of the USA to the next. 5 days later, 5 states covered, 3 time zones travelled in, and 8 flights in total, I had quite the experience!

Blitz Trip #1
Went on a two-night excursion to Santa Ana, New Mexico with my mom, aunt, & sister. There, we golfed a 'bit', took in some rays, ate, ate, and ate, did many-a-puzzles (our family loves crosswords/sudokus/you name it!), s'mored-it-up under the stars ... just enjoyed our surroundings.

Hyatt Tamaya brand

Sisters ....

... Sisters!

gotta love that sky!

As for blitz trip #2 ... pictures coming!

pic pix: all shots taken awhile our stay at the Tamaya Hyatt, 18.Sept.2010

layers

2010-09-15T22:46:00.000-07:00

As I'm going through some big changes right now (never have I not had a job working crazy hours, I now am working on creating an actual Sarah-schedule ... ), there are alot of "peel-backs" I am experiencing.

Like any time of a deepened evaluation and inventory of 'life', I'm dealin with taking some and losing some. No, not all inconsistency is bad, but nor is all mellowness good. I almost feel like I am cleaning out my fridge ... only wanting to keep the freshest of items and ones I will actually use to create something. Others could probably relate more to 'purging' (for some reason, I don't have as much fun throwing away as I do for re-using items for alternative purposes!), maybe even a cleansing ... I see it all the same ... we're all given continuous opportunities to start afresh, clear our palette, blank our slates.

Yet, much like this wall painted over many times, through many years, with many more stories that I could not even begin to compare to my own to, there is always a tinge of color left behind. A reminder of a lesson, a cherished smile, tears that were never seen, joy that still beams. Change can be good ... colorful really.

pic pix: a 'composed' story on a building wall in Inglewood, Calgary, AB

some sites seen in sfo

2010-09-07T23:41:00.000-07:00

Here's a little "taste" of our fast-blast down to San Francisco last Saturday ...

...M'love ... ready to eat that seafood he loves...

...top of Lombard Street ... sfo's crookedest street...

...the bridge was so foggy ... you could not see the top from shore...

pic pix: details of the loveliest of foggy days, SFO, CA 04.Sept.2010

enough of this

2010-08-26T22:59:00.000-07:00

My last few months have been tiring, deciding, and revealing. Priority is an attribute I am wanting to execute with each given breath I am granted. Taking an inventory of what I have prioritized, I've realized that alot of my waking moments have been filled with work; thus resulting in my tiredness. Becoming conscious of that, I have been deciding what I want to put first and how I can do that. And even though it's been a seemingly "walk down loose rock" feeling, daily, I am still gaining fresh perspective ... pure revelation.

Within this period, I've realized that I don't take enough time to even know what I want to prioritize within my desires! My God, my Love, my family, my friends have walked by me patiently ... to them I want to be able to show the primacy they hold. Time for uninterrupted creativity, the release of my thoughts to written word, physical health and rest ... components that can be bi-products of placing things first as I walk through this priority corridor.

That being said, and out in the open, I have decided to make a step in that direction today. Tomorrow, I am going to quit my airline job. I've been there 3 years, loved most moments of it (!), and am already having separation issues!! Mainly the benefits and family of co-workers will be my major losses; evenings and weekends free, proper sleep and consistency of routine will be some of my major gains. As any comfortable situation is hard to move away from, I know that leaving there will serve as another passageway to finding this "priority" puzzle I am figuring out.

Isn't priority what influences how you spend your day? How do you spend your days? What do you place at high value enough to be apart of your daily routine?

pic pix: Chester Lake, AB, 14.Aug.2010

quenched

2010-06-21T23:18:00.000-07:00

We ventured to the K-country (Kananaskis) this weekend ... something I suggest everyone should have the privy of before they die. The mountain air, rolling foothills, and surrounding greens array enough beauty that takes your breath away and immediately fills your lungs with fresh, moist "goodness". When you see and walk through such awesomeness, every spectrum of pleasure is satisfied ...

you hear ...

nothing but soft winds through trees, ripples or rages of water

you smell ...

sweet, familiar, yet crisp, alluring aromas beaconing longer stays

you feel ...

refreshed from the brisk air and a tingly heat from the warm sun

"You [GOD, our FATHER] open your hand and SATISFY the desires of every living thing..."

psalms 145:16

Nature once again sings to me ... my desire has been nourished and satisfied ... my Heavenly Father has opened His handiwork, manifested beauty for me to behold. What is it that you long to have satisfied? How do you seek it?

pic pix: my b-day hikes, K-Country, AB 19.Jun.10

island of color

2010-05-31T22:58:00.000-07:00

Yet another weekend of awesome sights, unforgettable experiences, warm hospitality ... I didn't want to leave! To have the privilege of being apart of such a special weekend (Matt's cousin's wedding), on such a special island (P.E.I.), made me feel like one special girl (which I was!!). If there was one thing I could hone in on about this 'gem of an isle', it would be the impressing array of vivid color. Red fertile soil serving as the undercurrent of this island's color palette, ready to cultivate potatoes, luscious greens freshly sprouted, perfectly placed, blue skies broadened overhead with blue ocean waters touching it's horizon, weathered greys whispering stories through wooden boards of buildings past ...

... take me back!!

pic pix: precious findings, Afton & O'Leary, PEI, Canada, May.2010

stand by

2010-05-17T05:21:00.001-07:00

Stand-by ... as I sit here at the gate in Austin, crossing my fingers for my coveted seat to get me home, I'm realizing that alot of my time is spent wishing I were elsewhere or at least "moving along". Much like this drop of rain that awaits it's debuted splash on the ground, my life sometimes feels in a holding position ... either on the verge of some inaugural event or anticipating the completion of a long due project. "Am I there yet?!" ... seems to be a question that will never get old!

"Do not be anxious about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God's peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

God is God. Who else can say, do not worry? Is there any other that you can thank who has provided for your every need? Only He can promise peace, and actually give it.

pic pix: rain droplet off of a cedar, Burnet, TX 14.May.10

desert gems

2010-05-06T23:28:00.000-07:00

Here are a few details I picked up on my recent trip to Mesa. I'm so grateful that I could extinguish this busy spell with a much needed time of r&r ... sleeping, reading, sleeping, and eating! Only a month left of this crazy schedule. I won't be in and out of town every three weeks and hopefully I'll have made a decision for what my work schedule is going to look like. Don't think I've ever been so excited to see June!!

pic pix: small definitions, Mesa, AZ 01.May.2010

it's about time

2010-04-25T23:52:00.000-07:00

... TIME ...

is of the essence [Unknown]

is the justice that examines all offenders [William Shakespeare]

is ticking away [DCTalk]

(the reason for ...) is so that everything doesn't happen at once [Albert Einstein]

is free but priceless [Harvey MacKay]

It's wild how the idea of time slipping away is perpetual, continuous through the ages. I'm convinced that it has got to be the sole thing that we try to use the most efficiently and effectively. We gauge the productivity of our lives as a ratio of what we can accomplish to the seconds/minutes/hours/years we are given. We apply so much pressure on ourselves to perform within this gifted window we consider precious ... this waking moment is a present (aka. the Present).

I've been working around the clock lately ... 2 jobs back-to-back with 1/3 of the amount of sleep I need! It is only for a "time" (I reassure myself by saying so!!), and does not feel so much as a gift but as a period I cannot speed fast enough through, like driving down the highway ... behind a cop! Slowly, the dissatisfaction of my 'current' can turn into a resentful attitude towards everything going on-within my relationships, my dreams, my career, my purpose. Dissatisfaction can turn to unhappiness, to bitterness. Places and thoughts we don't have the time to entertain.

View time differently today
... valuing the continuous breaths of air
... remembering the aspirations that are charging and encouraging to utilize every given moment
... reaching and receiving this opportune gift, changing what you can

To everything there is a season and a time to every purpose under heaven ...

[Ecclesiastes 3:1]

pic pix: sparklers celebrating Dad's BDay, Calgary, Alberta, Jul.09

brunchtime

2010-04-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

It was SO nice to have brunch with the "beauties" today! All my sisters ... one by blood, one by namesake, one by our timely 'African' watches :) To laugh, share, eat, and bond was a reminded blessing of how privied and blessed I am to be surrounded in such gratifying relationships.

Love ya ladies ... to the "moon"!!

pic pix: our ladies night, Nov.2009

good morning

2010-04-05T17:30:00.000-07:00

Good Friday, we went for a very early morning drive (like 6:30am early!!). The light was clear and there were no clouds in the sky ... perfect for capturing the colors and contours that cascaded from the sunrise. Matt had described how this church 'lit up' so early in the morning. It was almost more illusory to see it's solitary stance amidst a barren prairie with the cross shining so radiantly than actually hearing about it! After driving some more, then seeing some deer (a young buck too!), we stopped at one of his worksites where I clicked away trying to savor every line, angle and detail ... it's mornings like these that I wished I had his job :)

Hope you all had a blessed Easter!

pic pix: outside of Okotoks, AB, 02.Apr.10

reds

2010-03-30T22:37:00.000-07:00

...

love

blood

canada

fire engines

anger

nathaniel hawthorne's the scarlet letter

maraschino cherries

roses

juicy apple

forgiveness

stop sign

kissing lips

barn

kelly ripa belt

maple leaf

heat

cold nose

hearts

post box

wine

passion

cardinal

sales

...

reds

...

just to name a few

pic pix: my leather computer bag, Red Deer, Alberta Mar.10

mine heroine

2010-03-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

My Gramma is beautiful ... in so many ways, it's not nearly enough to pen. Anytime I have been asked "who is your hero?" or "who is your role model" ... Gramma is who.

We celebrated this last weekend her 80 years of life. Having her children and extensions gathered, commemorating her graceful years was not only a blessing, but a given hope that we can too live that many years and be as passionate about what we love and want to accomplish.

After we ate our meal, she shared "her story" with us. I knew nearly all of the accounts she shared, but was enriched as she spoke in her timeline, emphasizing the milestones most important to her. Her life has taken many turns ... through many tunnels, across countless scapes, over many seas. She's given her time to her family, her community, and has always grounded herself as she's walked with God's unimaginable direction and strength. The decisions she's gone through with and the battles she's overcome, mark an inspirational woman through and through.

I am immutably proud, honored, and thankful to have such beautiful lineage ... thanks Gramma ... I love you!

{who's your hero?}

pic pix: Gramma ready to blow her b-day candles out, Mar.10

come, walk, learn, keep

2010-03-15T10:55:00.000-07:00

COME to me ... I'll show you how to take a real rest ...
It takes a step, a point of surrender, to know freedom and have rest. An area/submission that will be a life's journey here on earth, but an eternal rest in heaven. It seems too simple, just following Him ... if only we'd keep it that pure.

WALK with me, and work with me - watch how I do it ...
Every day's busy-ness is temporal, but every moment's mattering is purposeful. Our "watching" how He does it comes with seeking, waiting, and lingering on God's unmarked nature, movements, and character. He displays so much love for us ... here, He challenges us to aspire for it.

LEARN the unforced rhythms of grace ...
There is never force in understanding, accepting, or loving. It comes naturally when we don't allow our motivations and presuppositions the "room" to take over. Grace ... the free and unmerited favor of God ... inexpressible to us, yet given to us freely and fluently by Him.

KEEP company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly ...
I am reliving the moment I had in this photograph ... I am light, I feel free. A simple act of wanting and being in His presence opens my mind, heart, and voice to sing. He promises, and He completes.

Matthew 11:28 [the Message]

pic pix: one Sarah leaping, Goat Pond, AB Dec.2008

eye-catching tones

2010-03-09T22:03:00.000-08:00

Color in a picture is like enthusiasm in life

~ Vincent Van Gogh ~

What ever would we do without the cheery element[s] and colorful threads found on a color wheel?!

pic pix: [1] Meringen, Switzerland .09, [2] Toronto, Canada .08, [3] Banff, Canada .08 - all taken with a smile on my face :)

how are hue?

2010-03-03T22:41:00.000-08:00

I was feeling down tonight ... everything was compiling and heaping over me so deep, that by the time I went to go write and release my thoughts, I couldn't focus on exactly what it was that was piling up. "Is my discouragement just an emotional reaction?" "Is this the place I really am?" Rather than trying to re-stir self-sympathy or reproduce this pyramid I felt stuck on the top of, my mind began jogging through what it is that allows me to breath in a smile.

My God, my love, my family, my friends ... all ultimately show the saturation behind my smile. For there isn't a day that I don't wonder how those I love are doing, and more often than not, these loved ones have made me laugh helping me to forget this shade I can get stuck under. But tonight, I needed an outlook change, something to adjust my perspective from residing in gray tones ...

[hue] the attribute of a color by virtue of which it is discernible and which is dependent of it's dominant wavelength, and independent of intensity or lightness

Who needs rosy-shmosy colored glasses to perceive the world, when you can differ your view by just changing your hue? Opaque "attributes of a color" always refer back to their "dominant wavelengths"/base colors. Modifying our hues isn't about placing transparencies over our issues, it's about rooting back to the organic, raw virtuosity of our colors, truth, reason, and love.

My hue today: yellow (it makes me smile!)

pic pix: yellow boots on the terrain & blooms 'o beauty, Ecuador 04.08

barbed boundaries

2010-02-23T23:52:00.000-08:00

i am at my barb wire fence

it is stark, unwelcoming, bare ... a picture of unrest
this is the point i've come to
unknowing, yet believing, fearing, yet trusting
that further than my present state
awaits a peaceful blanket and belt of time
bringing peace, certainty, warmth ... grace encompassing

past this barb wire fence
is a freedom beyond my expanse
this is a point where i choose perspective
not my immediate borders, but rather divine directive
i can choose to see it bleakly
or walk past this partition meekly
accepting an immeasurable gift of a pure and perfect panorama
or simply not moving or seeing any further than

my barb wire fence

pic pix: a view to a farmer's field, DeWinton AB Jan.2010

up close

2010-02-12T16:37:00.000-08:00

The closer you near a subject, there is more that is revealed. Sometimes pain, as a wound that could be freshly exposed, tender, or premature. But usually deep revelation exclaims beauty. For that which is uncovered from shed-able surfaces is truth ... organic and raw.

Must be why so many of us like things like natural foods, true friends, and divine nature. We crave this reality that allows us to get to the core, past all the masks and facades. Our desire is authenticity.

Teach me you way, O LORD

... and I will walk in your truth.

Give me an undivided heart

... that I may fear Your name

[psalm 86:11]

pic pix: one little flowered bud, Kananaskis, AB Jun.09

snowgrounds

2010-02-08T23:48:00.000-08:00

Sad story ... my camera is officially broken :( The other day, I was out on a drive wanting to capture, click, and create ... after these shots, no more camera. Just wish I could buy my dream camera {as of right this second - camera that I covet} ... sigh!

pic pix: some ground I covered (ha!), Okotoks, AB 04.Feb.2010

a prompt

2010-02-04T11:05:00.000-08:00

As I was driving yesterday, I stopped at the crosswalk to let this elderly lady walk across the street. Right as she was passing the front of my car, instead of waving or smiling she gave me the "peace" sign! My immediate thinking was assuming that she was saying, "Yo sista, peace to ya...", and I found myself laughing out loud as to what was going down in front of me! Then I thought, "Is that just a signature two-finger wave?". Finding myself giggling again, I figured not, because her index finger and middle finger were distinctly separated forming a 'V' ... I finally concluded, she was saying, "Peace..."

Peace is an oasis I can't just get or attain or work towards ... nor is it just a feeling or 'place' that can be created. It's a gift that's given when I find hope in more than just messages or signs, but in God's loving arms. As I am facing so many decisions and life 'movements' right now, what that 'lil lady shared with me was the exact prompt I needed to retreat back to my Savior's shelter.

It can get so crazy without a 'balance'. A balance between having understanding and wanting to know the reason and "why?" for everything and having an assurance and calm heart that as long as I abide in my Father, He'll bring peace. Because I'm such a "why?" learner, and need to see things visually to understand, I need to continually be reminded to walk in unseeing ways.

He knows my steps, my breaths, and my desires ... He will bring me peace.

...When PEACE like a river attendeth my way. When sorrows like sea billows roll. Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say, it is well, it is well with my soul... [Horatio Spafford]

pic pix: mountain run-off from Spray Lakes, Canmore, AB Jan.2010

smiles

2010-01-25T22:28:00.000-08:00

You know when you get back from a trip/vacation/break ... everything seems fresh, new, almost unconsuming? Schedules, deadlines, and other "things" of that nature aren't placed as priority as much as valuing the moments you can create being at home, enjoying that which you saw and now where you are. How, I ask, do we get at that place continually where we NEED a recess again?

Today, I was pining for that sentiment to bring me through these wintery days! So, for a bit of consoling, I scrolled through albums of photographs of my favorite trips. When I came across this photo my face became aglow! This young, Panamanian's beam and beautiful eyes were somethings I didn't want to forget in that little village of Llano Bonito, Panama. It seemed that most of the people living there were content ... truly happy ... you could see it on their faces.

These are people who have little to nothing, who see and preserve the value of their lives, customs, and traditions ... a people who, I'm sure, have never craved that "feeling" of refocus as I do after an out-of-my-world experience. Regardless what they have or haven't done, its what they DO that I concentrate on today.

It's because of gratitude that I've been so excited coming home and viewing life differently and it should be by that same genuine delight that I may be content today. Not rummaging for feelings or sensations, but allowing God to show me that He brings new mercies, fresh innovations, and exciting prospects when I am thankful for my very geographical location ... TODAY! right HERE!

...I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want... philippians 4:12

Smile with me wherever you are today ... being thankful of your present surroundings and the past 'thrills' that brought you here.

pic pix: 2 of my Panamanian friends, smiling - Llano Bonito, Panama Feb.2009

some salt with that?!

2010-01-20T17:06:00.000-08:00

Isn't this moose cute?! We saw him last weekend in a parking lot near the trail we went on finding "flavor" as he was licking the salt off of some cars ... poor guy got spooked by a dog and bolted soon after these shots. A posed thought ... wonder what the car owner thought when he saw half of his car clean?!

pic pix: one "licky" moose, outside Canmore (Spray Lakes area), AB 09.Jan.2010

candaci ... happy birthday!!!

2010-01-18T15:18:00.001-08:00

happy birthday candaci!! celebrating and thanking God for you today!

pic pix: one of our 'random' adventures! Nanton, AB Jan.09

caps

2010-01-14T07:02:00.000-08:00

do snowy caps have anything to do with thinking caps??

maybe not, maybe perhaps ...

It was such a nice break last weekend, not working either of my jobs, to drive out to the mountains and enjoy ...

... quiet ...

... fresh clean air ...

... stillness ...

After giving my time over to just BE, by resting my thoughts, time constraints, chatters, goals ... I find myself anticipating precious 'God thoughts', realizing fresh innovation, striving with vigor to be fruitful and productive with what/who I am. Today, I thank you God, for allowing my eyes to see, and my mind be free ...

pic pix: deep snowy trail - masked with whiteness, outside of Canmore, AB 09.Jan.2010

thriller

2010-01-08T23:58:00.000-08:00

Tonight, as we were deciding what kind of movies we wanted to watch, the most popular suggestion was to get a 'thriller'. Instead, we ended up watching a chick-flick (The Proposal) and one with a little bit of action/sci-fi (Star Trek)! Either which way, the word 'thrill', acted as reverberating bells chiming in this little thinking cap ... "do I really know the meaning of this word?" [almost like when you repeat any word over and over and over ... soon it doesn't sound like a familiar language!]

More than just a feeling, it is the 'experience' that has occurred that actually produces the emotion or wave of excitement we thrive off of. Not every single circumstance will merit that rush or stimulation, but it is my humble guess that we don't 'thrill' enough in our everyday. For what we think we 'thrill' in, is limited to simply the 'buzz', or 'high'.

The state of being thrilled is to rejoice! (rejoice : [be happy, be pleased, be pleased as punch ... be thrilled ...])

"...REJOICE in the Lord always, again I will say REJOICE!!"

Chapter 4 of Philippians, one of my "go-to" passages, reminding me how to walk and view each and everyday. Do I REJOICE in the Lord? Do I say REJOICE regardless if I feel the surge of emotions or not? When I say REJOICE, am I in the state of being thrilled to the point I can say, "I (will) thrive from this?" and say REJOICE again?!

pic pix: my 'like-sister' Sara & I jumping for joy, Toronto Sept.2010

happy new ... day!

2010-01-05T23:14:00.000-08:00

Today, Matt and me-self went for a little drive and gallivant outside the city. I got to shutterbug away and enjoy what I see as a nearly 'perfect day' ... fresh air, creation to capture, a little bit of adventure ... all with my favorite person!

... happy new day!

pic pix: county roads outside of Calgary, 05.Jan.2010

berry christmas!

2009-12-22T12:16:00.000-08:00

berries + snow = "eye" delight {get it ... "I" delight"!!}

pic pix: berries from the trees around my house - December 22 '09

traditions

2009-12-21T23:26:00.000-08:00

No other time of year really spotlights the phrase that "humans are creatures of habit". I mean, you take the same boxes out that hold the exact ornaments that you decorated with the year prior. A strange tree is bought and brought to your home to celebrate the holidays with you and your family. The consistent handful of songs are resung, remixed, and replayed each December ... And, it's not just one family, country, or race, it's a myriad of people everywhere, repeating actions over and over and over again!

I first started thinking about the 'why' of traditions the other day when I was driving with Matt and Colten, and none of us could figure out why we put trees in our houses! [see the link below!] I never really thought that I was one that "clung" to traditions, but something as simple as a Christmas tree ... hmmmm .... !!!

As much as I am one for adventure, searching for new ways to conquer the day with unique and daring elements .... familiarity and routine knit together a 'comfy' sweater I cozy up in as I face each new stimulation. When I was a kid, it didn't matter how much I craved to be living in someone else's shoes, in another era [I continually asked God why I wasn't born 200 years earlier as settler/explorer, 400 years earlier as a forest maiden, 1300 years earlier as ... etc!], or AT LEAST with a super power, my Mom & Dad's arms were what comforted me when I cried through such issues. Their warm hugs meant comfort, established and unreserved love. I think that feeling is we expect when we perform traditions and repeat 'what we did last year'. We forget the integral ingredients of relationship, love, peace are that "toastiness" which is trying to be recreated.

'why' a tree?!

pic pix: a tradition that our family holds ... my Dad lifting one of us kids up to put the angel on THE tree!! This year ... MY turn :) December '09

i love albrrrrrrrrta ... but ...

2009-12-15T17:12:00.000-08:00

Was leafing through some older National Geographic Traveller's magazine (and taking pictures too!!) .... ooooo, I'm just itching to get to some place warm, exotic, adventurous ... somebody, get me there!

pic pix: taken a cold winter night ... Calgary, AB

foreground

2009-12-08T06:11:00.000-08:00

fore-ground: noun [the part of the view that is nearest to the observer; the most prominent or important position or situation]

fore-ground: verb [make (something) the most prominent or important feature]

Isn't it funny, when something is on your mind, EVERYTHING seems to relate to that thought?! Say if it were someone ... reflections and faces remarkably resemble one of his/her features. If its a feeling or emotion (like being in love) ... you can be guaranteed that every song, photograph, and happy thing makes you want to smile because of its similarity to that which is on your mind.

I thought about this tunnel (there I go relating things again!) when my mind started to wonder and ponder on the thought above. When I am in a tunnel of thought/vision, everything casted beyond that tunnel is shadowed with a foreground of my current "tunnel". This very tunnel in Quito, apart of la Calle Ronda, had lights that would illuminate different colors every few minutes. After the sequence of colors was played, I knew I wanted to photograph the deep indigo blue hues because of the contrast and the 'vibe' that I felt - mysterious warmth.

Daily, I know I do the very same thing. Maybe not with varied colors brightening a tunnel, but with circumstance, emotion, and people we surround ourselves with. Creating a symptom, persay, known as being 'tunnel-visioned'. The dictionary describes "tunnel-vision" as a short-sightedness ... myopia ... focusing only what is immediately in front of you, blurring objects [life] that are farther ahead.

Rather than getting stuck within a concentration of myself (only my woes, joys, prospects, realities), I will change my foreground and REJOICE in ALL that is given to me in view today! I set out and advance with HOPE as my vanguard, pushing aside selfish sights, making "prominent" this beautiful panorama without limits.

pic pix : la Calle Ronda tunnel, Quito, Ecuador - '08

certain certainties

2009-11-30T18:18:00.000-08:00

When you are absolutuley sure about something, you exhibit confidence, you stride with a bold step, you "know what you know"! Sometimes I wonder if I am really CERTAIN of joy, and what it beholds ...

Its not only a word to understand, its a lifestyle. Seen not just through one pane of glass named "JOY", but perceived through a frame that's expanse encompasses the sky above us. Classified as an emotion, known as a state. Its entirety supremely surpasses the extent to which I understand ... do I really KNOW joy?

Of course, I have experienced, seen, and been blessed by joy. For one, those that love me bring me such joy in the thought of it! Receiving the ultimate Gift of Salvation (another attribute of love), and living in a life interpreted within God's promises is also casted with joy. But if I am so confident that I associate and identify with joy as a certainty, why do I allow myself to sometimes be depressed, sad?
I do not doubt that it will be something that each of us will face as we tread our path here on earth. But we need to walk in CERTAINTY, savoring that JOY that is not only sustaining but everlasting. Our days are numbered and unknown, that of which I am also certain(!). Each moment breathed must be authentically concrete ... for we can have real, assured JOY!

... Hearts unfold like flowers before thee, opening to the sun above.

Melt the clouds of sin and sadness, drive the dark of doubt away.

Giver of immortal gladness, fill us with the Light of day ...

{vs 2 - JOYful JOYful, We Adore Thee, Henry J. van Dyke}

Colorfully leap in such certainty ... :)

pic pix: me & boo's "love-joy-peace walk" - Fish Creek Park '08

s.i.n.g.

2009-11-23T21:45:00.000-08:00

I went out with a 'kindred spirit' for a latte last tonight. Though we are exact opposites, I say 'kindred' because regardless of our personalities and character styles (which are on each extreme end of opposites!), we still face the similar struggles, breath the same air, ask paralleled questions. Often, I think that much I go through is a 'person'al battle and no one could have ever encountered that which I have. It's not just 'likely' that we do ... it's reality.

Obviously, we're not identical(!) and the way we dice and knead issues are interpreted on very different spectrums. Like capturing a moment on film ... we can see that my girlfriend is taking a picture of a SFO street and we can assume/guess how it'll turn out. But even if its ever so slight, the image won't be depicted that way you or I saw it or how we would've presented it. Neither are more right than the other, both are true views of what it was ... it's just our interpretation that is different.

Interpretations make each one of us SO unique. All the variances of thoughts, executions, and desires create millions and billions of faces, colors, and ideas. When I'm riding on the C-Train (temporarilily an every-morning experience) I'm intrigued with all the eyes and stories behind them. The SILENCE (which nearly kills me!) and the 'here and there' expression ... almost give away more to what they are thinking. After people watching for a bit, I almost feel allied to their field of vision, despite how unresembling we may be, because I know we feel and see the same things. For example, a very pregnant woman came on the yesterday train and started looking for a seat. All were taken, so I gave her mine. Though there wasn't a long explanation of words before or after she sat down ... I knew she was relieved actually relaxed. Even though it was the simplest of gestures, and probably one of the most apparent 'needs' that was present, I 'briefly' saw the a glimpse of her thoughts with what her physical state exhibited (a very pregnant belly! tired eyes, long sigh). And because of my interpretation, I 'briefly' was connected.

It's a circle of Needing, Seeing, Interpreting, and Giving ... a daily question of "what part of the circle do I SING today?"

pic pix: a 'kindred spirit' illustrating her interpretation in San Francisco - March '09

what am i created for ... that which i am created of ...

2009-11-19T22:40:00.000-08:00

Yes ... my sister will be so proud of me for capturing such a special momento from our evening's viewing of the latest "New Moon"!! We were treated by our dear friend Sara to the "very important people" sneak peak of the film tonight. Grande fun to say the least!

Taking off the bracelet, reading the label "V.I.P.", and pondering for a moment ... I came to thoughts again of how 'very important' it is to be the person I've been blueprinted as. Media, relationships, work, future ... life can all distract us from seeing the development that we've become (if it be a work in progress, just beginning, or almost accomplished). Thats when we fail to realize how purposefully and wonderfully we are designed.

" ... God created man in His own image ..." [Genesis 1:27] Creating drawings on the computer, or even drawing free-hand, when dimensions are off or if your perception and perspective are not uniting to make the subject seem at all proper and proportioned, you don't result in a very worthy result. Man can construct and build some beautiful and incredulous things, but nothing with a spirit, uniqueness, or purpose ... life.

If it be at the airport, or riding on the c-train .... wherever you go, there is always some facet of this intrigue known as the human race. All 'very important people'. One has been created to bring joy to all he meets, another dons grace with just her smile, etc ... peoples' personalities and progresses cannot even begin to compare to the purpose of which they live. Its almost like the movie The Pursuit of Happyness. Where, regardless of his state, will, and circumstance Will Smith's character never lost the purpose and drive to live ... to pursue.

Join me today and be in pursuit ... remembering that you have been called a "V.I.P." by a marvelous Maker (and me!) ... that today's purpose is for you to live fearfully and wonderfully made.

I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made ... your works are wonderful, I know that full well - King David, Psalm 139 vs 14

pic pix: my VIP wristband :)- Calgary '09

colorful skies

2009-11-15T23:48:00.000-08:00

Took this shot earlier this evening as I was absolutely stunned with the sky's colors, depths, textures, and 'emotions'. No photoshop here, just God's spectacular handiwork ... [glee!]

pic pix: Calgary, Alberta - Nov '09

pages

2009-11-11T12:29:00.000-08:00

I've gotten SO spoiled, working for an airline, thinking I need to travel every couple months! Looking through photos again this morning, I was longing that I be in France, Chile, Malaysia, Turkey ... just somewhere more colorful and unlike where I am presently.

Different moments in travels, usually while hiking/exploring a country's natural landscape, its dawned on me how beautiful and incredible it is to live where I am, in the Rocky Mountains ... geographically, a wonder of the world. But how often is it that I've said the same about the life that I live?! "How beautiful, how incredible it is to live the life of Sarah?"

Somehow, not just with travel, we associate the "somewhere else" of our current situation [school, work, relationships] with adventure, satisfaction, enjoyment ... and once we get here, to this very day in time, we're still thirsty for tomorrow's change. Its natural to want to move forward, and I don't suggest that we flip the page back to yesterday, but I notice that days go by with me only skimming the page I'm on.

I see the amazing profile of the mountains to the west, the promise of new beginnings to the sun rising on the east ... I'm loved by family and friends, I have my immediate needs taken care of, I am healthy ... I have been given an effervescent life by a Creator who loves me ... So, YES! Life is beautiful and incredible when I actually intake and absorb that vivacity which is leaping off of that leaf of paper I label "Today".

Today, I strive to have a better attitude ... outlook. Actually reading my life goings-on today and knowing that I am fulfilled and blessed.

"Satisfy us each morning with Your unfailing love ... so we may sing for joy to the end of our lives ... "

Psalm 90:14

pic pix: a lively avenue we strolled while in Strasbourg, France - May '09

indulging in the dulce

2009-11-09T09:41:00.001-08:00

Honoring Matt's grandma, family and friends gathered this weekend to celebrate her 85 years of heritage, family, and blessings. During the program that was prepared for her, and after something was shared, she leaned over with the biggest smile and whispered in response, "Sweet!"

I wish that I could remember exactly what it was that she found so delightful ... it was a "glee" moment for me to hear her use such slang. Regardless, it struck me with a smile then and meets me again today digging a little deeper into the reality of "sweet's" scope.

"Sweet" surpasses an expression, slang, and tasteful sensation. Sweetness describes a high degree of 'great' that no one really can otherwise explain. When someone is sweet ... their natural vibes resonate of a cozy-type of nice. When someone is sweet on you ... they look forward to seeing you, like a long anticipated treat! When you hum a sweet lullaby ... a wholesomeness and innocence is assumed. When the hymn "Tis so Sweet to Trust in Jesus" is sung ... what we're really saying is 'what could be more aromatic and assuring than His presence guiding our day-to-day lives'?!

Another song, from earlier years, that I still love to sing ... "Sweet Wind" (David Ruis). It proclaims how God's presence is sweet like wind blowing, rain pouring, fire burning. How can we compare anything to be GRANDER?! more AMAZING?! SWEETER?! We are privileged, spoiled really, to know and have access to such Creation, Power, and Existence. He avails Himself day & night, exceeding more than just our cravings and desires. And still, despite our shortcomings, we are pandered to points beyond our simple satisfactions.

I've never really had a sweet tooth (except...when it comes to loving chocolate!) and only once in a blue moon do I really have a sweetheart. But today, I take in and indulge ... freedom, refreshedness, love ... because my God is "Sweet!"

pic pix: one of the many(!) decadent desserts I devoured while in Ronda, Spain - Sept '09

openings

2009-11-04T21:43:00.000-08:00

There is always a mystery to what lies behind a closed door. A surprise, tragedy, wake-up call ... the simplicity of an everyday occurrence. All reveal our utter lack of control to what will be disclosed when the knob is turned. Yet ... we all have a choice to walk through the exhibited entrances/exits we front daily.

Sometimes opening a door creates opportunity that we could never have fathomed. Today, I was walking up a wide, ascending sidewalk. A young man in a wheelchair was working with concentrated efforts, making his way forward. My eyes were not looking or anticipating a "door" of any kind as I walked beside him. A man striding a bit ahead of me slowed down to start conversation with the younger man. Within seconds, the younger man asked if he would be willing to push him 20 feet farther to get over the hardest part of the hill. As if on queue, this 'striding' man instinctively helped him forward. Maybe everyone else would've seen such a door presented to open ... I didn't. It caused me to think "how many doors am I blind to?"

I continually ask God to show me these portals, for these types of opportunities. And here is one...this very day! Not to be down on myself that I didn't jump in when I could've, but rather to focus on the reality that God follows through with His promises. He assured us that when we knock, He will open, answer, and create the doors of our needs, our cries, our hearts, our mysteries. That part IS taken care of.

Our part ... we may not have the power to open or make "doors" appear, but we do have the capacity to ask God for direction to them, to knock when we get there, and to take the initial step through them.

pic pix: handle on the door to an old church [Wiesbaden, Germany] that was being restored while I was there June '08 ... I wonder how many non-Purelled hands have turned this nob??!!